Omg i fucking know what happened. Some fucker hacked into my onsugar and privatized my fucking blog. So now the tagboard's gone, the description gone everything gone, followers gone, hahaha
FUCK YOU ONSUGAR :)
M finally moving again. Can't be bothered with this shit site anymore. Fuck you. I shall go search for better sites now. And when i do i'll post my last post here and get the fuck out of onsugar.
tastelikesugar.onsugar.com, bye.
I love you,
and I will love you until I die,
and if there is life after that,
I’ll love you then.
An attempt at a decent post. Hopefully when i press publish the post will BE PUBLISHED. So anyway, i was suppose to get a sushi treat later however :( how sad. My sad life. At home. *hint hint DEANNA*
Apparently i am to be studying now? Sorry not happening.
The font on macbook is really really nice. BYE COMPAQ NEVER GOING BACK TO YOU AGAIN :) I HAVE BEEN... APPLEFIED! According to celine. Inventor of that supposed supercool word.
Hahahaha i'm gonna get a polaroid soon and then i don't have to waste time uploading and printing stuff. Yay to 21st century, mother of new age technology.
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Are you following me?” she asks, but doesn’t meet my gaze.
“Yeah,” I say.
“Why?”
I give her the only honest and true answer I have. “You’re where I want to be.
-LEAVING PARADISE, SIMONE ELKELES
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I want to say somewhere: I’ve tried to be forgiving. And yet. There were times in my life, whole years, when anger got the better of me. Ugliness turned me inside out. There was a certain satisfaction in bitterness. I courted it. It was standing outside, and I invited it in.
At the time, my life just seemed too complete,
and maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.
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FUCK YOU ONSUGAR, FUCK YOU.
WHEN ONSUGAR STOPS BEING SO BITCHY I WILL POST A DECENT POST. FOR NOW, URGH FUCK YOU ONSUGAR.
At times, I feel like the heart and mind play tricks on each other.
That just when you have got yourself convinced
with one that something is what you want,
the other steps in and makes you feel nothing but doubt.
P-p-p-prelims are over, like finally :) Time is passing by s-s-s-s-so fast :(
I am Dead. Beat. Oh my i realise like to say that hahahaahaha. I HAVE BEATEN MY RECORD. I HAVE OFFICIALLY SPENT MORE THAN 3 HOURS IN ORCHARD FOR 3 STRAIGHT DAYS IN A ROW. I spent 5 hours in the previous 2 days and 3 just now :)
Oh wait. Shall talk about stuff in chronological order.
So first, sushi buffet :) Was awfully full after the whole thing but hahaha it's sushi so i was happy :D we spent about 2 hours there with the STUPID FUCKING MANAGER (who doesn't deserve to be one in my honest opinion) and then we ate peas and disgusting ginger stuff soaked in soy sauce. It was nice :) :) Bonding time :) :)
Now i can add one more word to the list of words that remind people of me. At the top would be pink (obviously you can go jump off smth if you didn't know that) and the second one is now fuck :) Is that something to be proud of? idk. It just goes to show that when all you people are married and having sex in about 10 years time? You'll be thinking about me :D (gross)
Then i went shopping (not suprising) with sylvia (suprising) and we succeeded in getting everything i listed before we started shopping! It was quite fun actually! Hehehehe.
Lucifer is now playing on repeat :) Loverholic? Lovertronic? Isn't loverholic derived from alcoholic and lovertronic from electronic.... So they're drunk and they love gadgets?! Dont get it. Still nice though :) Hehehehe minho's rap is nice :) Key's hair is the best and i should shut up now before anyone clicks the x at the top right hand corner.
Wait i shall save the rest of my kpop rant for the last part of the post so anti-kpop people can just skip it easily.
Apparently after all the prep talks my school has given me, i'm suppose to feel xtremely motivated and ready to HINK EEL AND CT (think feel and act) HOWEVER, don't see that happening sorry. :( This is depressing, i'm going to fail o's (look i'm sewing seeds or wtv)
I'm sure i'll be motivated soon enough. Hopefully. Tomorrow........................ shopping! Again :D Then party @ joy's! Hehehe can't wait :)
Life is good for now.
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KPOP RANT STARTS HERE.
WHY CAN'T DBSK JUST GET BACK TGTH. WHY MUST CHANGMIN AND YUNHO BE ON THE PLANE ALONE :( WHY MUST BOA SIT IN BETWEEN THEM AND TAKE A PHOTO. SHE CAN'T EVER REPLACE THE LACK OF MEMBERS. WHY CAN'T DONGHAE AND EUNHYUK SHOW MORE FANSERVICE. WHY MUST SNSD BE THERE. At least key and jonghyun wore couple shirts (yay!) and i saw everyone using the 300$+ earpieces. Yes, i know you artists are very rich. (which is absurd if sm is really taking your money, so claimed my ex husband who refuses to make up with his other 2 band members or rather, lover and son) I am going crazy :(
SS3 :D
HI ONSUGAR IS BEING A BUGGER AGAIN :) :) :) I SHOULD LIST OUT ALL THE VULGAR/ REALLY DISGUSTING WORDS THAT START WITH B LIKE FOR INSTANCE, BUTT AND BOOBS AND WELL THE OTHER WORD FOR BOOBS.
HOWEVER, HOW EVER, HOWEVER, THERE ARE NICE WORDS THAT START WITH B TOO! LIKE FOR INSTANCE, BEL! AND BEAUTIFUL (BEAUTIFUL BEL) AND BOOKS AND BOOKS AND MORE BOOKS.
I need a decent book to read :(
Okay moving on, my weekend has been absolutely wundafuel! Hehe no wait, Friday was just as nice. Despite having to take 3 papers on Fri + handbell photoshoot (which was pretty funny in the end), i went out! Like finally like yay! Hahaha and bought myself 2 rings, totally contradicting my dislike for rings. But they cost me a bomb :( I don't regret buying them though :) (i never do)
Anyway, and then at about 10 we made our way from ion (it has this SMELL which i can smell once i step out of the train) to gardens and had supper there :) In this new dessert place where they were showing DREAM CONCERT (who cares i have the cd)
OHHHH AND WE TOOK MANY FUNNY VIDS USING SARAH'S CAMERA :D (okay maybe just me) i might post them up hehehehe.
Saturday was........................................... busy? Nothing much though :( Sunday (today) was busy busy busy as well.
Okay my weekends might not have been that great since i only liked Friday and it's not a weekend. Prelims are almost over! With the exception of physics p2. I have increased my love for physics and amath (not kidding) because unlike everything else, they actually MAKE SENSE. Who cares about the elements and how plants respire and WHO CARES ABOUT COUNTING WATER BILLS AND ALL THAT SHIT AND WHO CARES ABOUT VENICE (k it's quite nice but still).
English and lit were always my fav subs anyway.
GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHH I SOUND LIKE A GEEEEEEEEEEK LIKE A NERDDDDDD :( This is so sad.
Hahaha i shall end my mindless ugly post with no picture and no quote because onsugar chose to shit me.
Oh and i'm having second thoughts about forever. Not literally but the other meaning (selective sharing- only few wld understand) Maybe after o's?
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Forever.
It is necessary,
in this world,
to be made of
harder stuff than one’s environment.
An attempt at a decent post! Hehehe. (Onsugar isn't being a bitch anymore).
So.. the past few days have been hectic like hell. This week has been really terrible (my fingers are now itching to type 'T.T' but it's classified as a lian-ish emicon or smth like that) but anyway, i died. Like, i literally died (brain dead) and then i had to force it to start again then it died the next day then i forced it to start again and you know..... the repetitive cycle.
Oh, something new and interesting to brighten up my xtremely dull life- in 4A1, 2 rows/columns away from me, A BUNG COMMUNITY HAS FORMED! They consist of Captain Bung Deanna and her fellow bung mates- sylvia and bing LEAH. Oh and they have neighbours too- elzbth and bethanie (omg i just realised elizabeth w/o vowels looks really awsm).
Friends have kept me sane- i am tres thankful for that :)
On saturday, i had music! Aaaaaaaaaaaaand Mui Gek and i took pics in the lab! The last time i did that was like 2 years back and i still have the photos HAHA but anyway these are funnier and nicer :) Music make us insane.
I really really really wanna learn the celtic hammered dulcimer :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
Anyway, i will die tomorrow again since there's tripple papers to sit for.
Hi, i am very stressed now. I was suppose to devote 2 hours of my afternoon to music so that i can at least attain a decent pass tomorrow, unfortunately, i don't think so (i have no doubts) that a 50 is even possible.
I started by googling 'list of jiangnan sizhu instruments'. 45 minutes later, i was on to my 15th video of dbsk's holiday in saipan. The worst thing is, i'm starting to feel sad that they're not performing tgth anymomre! (The word "split" is taboo and forbidden)
I CANNOT STAND MYSELF. 100% am going to fail tomorrow.
It’s amazing that the heart makes no noise when it cracks.
In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move.
Oh. Because onsugar is being an ABSOLUTE BITCH, i can't upload new pictures and thus i'm using my VERY FIRST picture uploaded when i just joined onsugar. Which is a year and 5 days ago :) Hehe. So my weekends have been shitty. I've been watching yog like crazy (esp the gymnastics) and i'm falling in love with ireland folksongs :)
Fb is like a memory portal. I was on the verge of swearing never to go back to fb again.
I will now drown myself in celtic woman. I like them, no. I love them. Bye.
If nature has made you for a giver, your hands are born open, and so is your heart;
and though there may be times when your hands are empty, your heart is always full,
and you can give things out of that—warm things, kind things, sweet things—help and comfort and laughter
—and sometimes gay, kind laughter is the best help of all.
-A Little Princess, Frances Hodgson Burnett
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I am feeling the need to do a little bit of soul searching. I am so sick of this. For some reason i think many of my posts have been titled 'tired'. Life tires me. The need to constantly keep my life in balance, the drastic mood changes (Yes i suffer from insanse mood swings and omg they swing a lot), haha i just don't know what else i'm expected to do; i don't know what to do anymore.
Apparently my only purpose right now in life is to study. How mundane, it's like instructing me to stand in fire and watch flames lick my skin and tear them apart- it's like watching my life dissolve in sulphuric acid (dibasic acid, chem has taught me well). I, am a person who literally fucking hates routine. To ask me to sit there and do math for 2 hours straight is like asking me to drown myself, in mud.
Still, at the end of the day, when it all boils down to one thing- i am to do it. I am forced and pushed and kicked to study. It's not like i do it willingly anyway. Most of the time i grit my teeth and mutter MY FAVOURITE WORD which i think you obviously know it starts with F and ends with K it's FIRETRUCK no just kidding.
Yes so maybe i should tell myself that studying, though it doesnt give me a life at this point of time, it will raise my standards of living in the future (i don't think about the future a lot i like to live in the present......... or the past) and I want to live, but i also want to live a certain Quality of Life.
So maybe................................ Korea? After O's? Anyone? :)
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There was no sun; there was no light. I was dying. I couldn't remember what the sky looked like.
But i didn't die. I was lost to a sea of cold, and then I was reborn into a world of warmth.
(That's from Shiver)
YAY i posted and then i refreshed the page and realised i've been on onsugar for ONE YEAR (and one day)
BUT OMG ONE YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
(I was on blogger longer but WHO CARES) I'VE BEEN ON ONSUGAR FOR ONE YEAR YAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
